Why Can't I flirt? The Cute Physical Therapist

UGH.  I need to work on some things.  Like how to flirt.  Like how to let loose.  Like how to feel more confident and unafraid.

Took myself out tonight after work.  Avoided the place that I WANTED to go to, because the boat builder might be there.  More on that later.

The usual: empty seat at the bar...ordered a beer and salad with chicken.  There was an empty seat next me.  I'm eating...."Is anyone sitting here?"  My mouth full of lettuce I say No.  He's CUTE.  YOUNG.  Flawless smooth skin, square jaw, nice hair.  Button down long sleeve shirt and dark jeans.  Slim.  Basically: CUTE.

He strikes up the conversation, "Here by yourself or meeting some friends?".  Turns out we are both there solo just to get dinner on our way home from work because it is so much easier than cooking.  He's pretty friendly.  He introduces himself.  We chit chat.  He's a physical therapist.  I tell him a little about my store.  His food comes and the conversation drops to practically nothing.  Soon I'm done with my dinner and my beer, he's still eating, and I don't want to order another drink so I ask for my check.

So why didn't I flirt with him?  WELL.  I wasn't feeling so confident.  The humidity is doing terrible things to my complexion and my hair.  I could feel a couple small pimples forming up on the side of my face that was facing him.  And I noticed I spattered a small drop of salad dressing on my shirt.  So I'm trying to hide my pimple and my salad dressing stain with my unruly hair while trying not to look like a character from Fraggle Rock.  And it seemed like he may have been interested.  I think I saw him glancing sideways, checking me out periodically, and he asked that "Come here often?" question.  Like maybe he was wondering if he'd run into me again?  When I paid my bill he smiled at me and wished me a good evening.

On my way back to my car, the French Man leaned towards his restaurant's window and waved to me.

Last weekend Boat Builder blew me off...our date never happened and I haven't heard from him since.  No more daily texts from him.

Last night I went out on a "coffee date" with a guy I "met" through that online dating site. Nice guy...interesting guy...mildy attractive.  He was DEFINATELY interested.  But I found myself unable to flirt and being very hesitant about his advances....he kissed me on the cheek a couple times and I'm pretty sure he was hoping to get more than my cheek.

Who can give me lessons on flirting?  I think I'll treat my self to a facial before bed.