The Heart Echo Man

I hadn't talked to or met anyone new in many, many, many weeks.  I hadn't even logged into my online dating profile in just as long.  Then I did.  Deleted scores of unread messages - but this one stood out.  Something about him caught my eye, (could have been the long dark curly hair).  We started chatting....like non stop for a couple days.  Then he shows up at my work (he gave me advance warning) with his daughter to do some shopping and I felt my heart do a flip flop or two.  Within seconds of seeing his face, his smile, his eyes, his voice, and they the way he was with his daughter, I was completely smitten.  A few hours later, he and I met for dinner after I got out of work.  My immediate liking of him took me completely off guard....normally I'm more...unsure...hesitant.  But no, not with him.  The all around attraction was there.  The flitter flutter.  The admiration.  He seemed to be a good father, a good person...and looking at him I felt like I had maybe known him before, or was supposed to know him now.  Something or maybe everything about him felt right!!!!!

We chatted every day for a week, moved off from chatting on the dating site to texting each other directly, then we had a date.  He picked me up, he opened every door for me, he paid for the cover charge and food and drinks.  We laughed and smiled and talked.  I saw a twinkle in his eye, I thought, when he looked at me.  We flirted.  When he dropped me off at my house at the end of the night...said we had fun and wanted to see each other again, we went in for the hug...and he kissed me on the cheek...I pulled back and looked at him, then the real kiss came, then another....  I couldn't sleep that night....I was "squeeeing" with glee for hours.  It's been years since I've felt that.

Three days later (yes after being in touch via text often), he texts me that he's met someone else that he clicks with, and wants to date only her.

 I feel completely gutted.  I can't even go into what happened between a friend and I last night that makes this even more difficult.

I don't think I'm cut out for handling things like this.  I like to think that I'm strong....and I am, usually, but not when I think I've met someone very special, and get cut down so quickly and unexpectedly.  He said he was sorry, and that he liked me, and hoped I would find someone.

So there goes the Heart Echo Man.

I think it's time to give up for a while, again.