I REALLY don't like being out solo

Alright. So the purpose of solo date night chronicles is to to have me going out by myself, being the amazing and attractive (?) female who isn't afraid to go out alone and have adventures.

But the truth is that I HATE being out alone.  I am a quiet person, but I LOVE being out with people, talking to people, etc.  Sometimes I have a hard time with this this, because, well, I find myself rather boring.  I don't have much to talk about, and find that I have little in common with the people I find myself with around in bars.  I don't follow popular music, or sports. Or anything popular or current. 

I went out solo this past Monday.  It was nice to be out and eat dinner and have a beer.  But it was a mistake.  It was not an adventure, just a night not eating home alone.  Monday night is not a good night to go out and be around social people.  I found myself texting my new boat builder friend who was at a bar just a couple hundred feet away, and grateful for the contact with someone who seemed interested in talking to me.  (and wishing I was out with him instead of by myself).

The boat builder and I have been communicating quite frequently through text...not something that I'm used to.  But I've found myself waiting and hoping to hear from him, which has been almost daily.  At first I found his attention worrisome...not sure if it was what I wanted...not used to the attention...not used to having someone besides my mom who was interested in how my day was going.

As we all should know, texts are rather impersonal...you can't get a feel for the person on the other end...and things can get read wrong.  And there were some texts from the boat builder that I just wasn't sure about.  I AM pretty sure now that he is definately a good guy. And...and this a problem of mine...after the first few days of hesitation...I would get to hoping that he would stop in to my store to say hello again.  Perhaps because I trust the in person "hello's" much better than the texts.  Perhaps just wanting to see a man who might be interested in me, IN PERSON.

I joined an online dating site last week (?).  In the first couple of days I got over a dozen messages from guys.  Who knows if they were good guys are not....You can't tell from a picture and typed words.  I wrote back to one of them, after several days.  But in between that time I added content to my online dating profile.  And since then....no emails...I think I scared them off. Except for the guy I responded to who asked "So....how long ago was that breakup you mentioned?".

I AM (I hope) now over that breakup...and I've learned a lot from it.  I thought I was picky before, but I may be more picky now than ever.  And my goal is to let go of all of the qualifications that a guy must have...and just go with the flow.  Like I used to.  I'm still young, and I can still have fun.  I just can't let it get a hold of me.

I had a couple of beers with the boat builder tonight, and we have a  "date" for tomorrow.....