Working on Myself, and Holy Heck, Hello Future?

Written Thursday night:
I finally got together with Mr. 6:00 (last weekend) after a three week hiatus, to give him back his things. He was shocked, didn't realize we were over (HELLO....I never told him I missed him, or was looking forward to seeing him, and we barely emailed each other a few lines over THREE WEEKS). He came over, made me blush and laugh, and second guess myself, then told me it was time for me to submit my application for the nunnery. Go to hell Mr. 6:00! Actually, I wish him luck. Maybe some other gal will have more patience in training him than I had.

Tuesday night I was out at a downtown business association reception thingy. I was hesitant going solo, not sure if I could brave it, but I'm glad I did. Coctails and tapas and name tags. There weren't many people there with their spouses. I chatted some. Dispelled a theory from a prominent business man in the association that NO, I am not approaching my mid twenties, more like mid-thirties. His was impressed. Yeah, I look young. And I got a few minutes to chat with the owner of the Cafe, told her it was a great place to meet first dates. Turns out she's a solo woman as well. She said she'd give me a thumbs up or down if she saw me with a date.

So last night (wednesday now) I was determined to get back on my track of being good to myself. Of getting healthy. Trying to excercise in the mornings, eating right, and being okay with being alone. I was Feeling Good. Maybe because I'm looking forward to meeting a great (?) guy.  I've been more active on the dating site, and have been emailing with one guy who seems really nice.  The emails have all been good, no red flags, but a couple of "hmmm"s, and he asked me out for coffee!  We set a date for coffee this Sunday afternoon at my favorite Cafe.  Yay!

Then today happens.  I had one of those moments that should only happen in movies.  I had a chat on FB with an old friend from my college days, not a close friend, but a guy who I sorta knew and had a HUGE crush on.  I was 18/19 when I would have met him?  I remember one night after hanging out with friends til the early morning, he walked me back to my dorm, perfect gentleman, to make sure I got there safely, then he walked all the way back.  Whenever he was around, he would give me the best hugs in the world.  He was so cool and so nice and way too amazing for me.  Like a celebrity crush.  So he stuck in my memory all these years.  That random and brave chat today brought out that he had felt the same about me way back then (I was too cool for him??  How the heck??).  Holy hell?  Really?  He said some things that got me all fluttery.  He admired me, was inspired by me, told me I was beautiful...  I was distracted and flushed all day.  I just wanted him to toss me over his shoulder and carry me away, or maybe show up on a white horse.  He said some things that kind of blew me away...I honestly contemplated breaking my coffee date this Sunday so I could meet up with him...but I didn't, err, haven't yet.

Hello Future.  What do you bring?  And what other surprises might you have in store for me?

Que up Van Halen's "Right Now".  I was listening to it at some point while writing this, and it just seemed to fit.  Here's a link:   http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vyGzPmgR1QY