A new chapter in my life my solo life.
In my last post, I mentioned that I had a coffee date, set up by a friend. Well, that coffee date turned into a 1.5 year relationship. Turns out that that guy and I hit it off. We took it slow, took nearly two months getting to know each other before entering into a "relationship". It was fabulous, and I was so so happy...but then he started becoming distant, and then it blew up. Turns out he finally realized that he had no feelings for me. It was a shock...a stab I had not been anticipating.
Solo again.
It's been a tough 13 days.
I'm not going to let it defeat me. I'm going to get out there again to prove to myself that I AM WORTH IT.
I got really sick a couple days after the break up, I'm still sick. Had a flu, then maybe bronchitis or walking pneumonia. I had a fever for three days. I still don't feel right. I should be in bed right now but my head is....not tired.
Both my brother and my best friend suggested I join an online dating site. Perhaps I'll try that, eventually. But first I just need to take myself out. Prove to myself again that I am strong enough, brave enough. Before I can do that, I must be strong enough to mail my exboyfriend's house key to him. I think I'll be ready for that soon. But I'm keeping his book. It's the only thing of his (besides the key) that I have.
I contemplated going out this weekend, but I'm not sure I have it in me. I will soon.
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